Keeping it together
Sometimes it’s necessary to take a break and evaluate where you’re going with your writing. That’s what I did over the last few days. I haven’t even looked at my text. I read books that could count as research and had conversations with my brother about the story. I have been having some problems with the third part and I think a bit of time off helped me to get some new leads for it. Generally I think that I will need quite a bit of editing, before I’ll be happy with it. It also seems to me that I have to live up to quite a personality with all of it. The protagonist is quite strongly connected with a real person, even someone I admire, so it’s all very precarious and I want to get it right. To make things worse, there is a 50 / 50 chance that the whole effort will be for nothing. This real person could easily block the novel from ever being published if he doesn’t like the idea. This little problem was easy to ignore while I was nowhere near finishing the first draft, but now I’m actually rather close and it’s becoming more of a real problem. The more I advance on my draft, the closer I get to the problem of approaching this person and asking about his opinion on my work.
And then there was also the problem with the idea for the sequel. The idea actually blocked me somewhat and I couldn’t quite concentrate on getting this current story developed properly. It’s difficult enough to keep the first part coherent, considering that the third part seems so different from the rest. Having another new and different idea in my head makes it even harder to keep it all in order. I will maybe read for a couple more days, but then I should really start to write again.
All in all it’s not exactly smooth sailing these days, but I’m still working on it, even if it’s only progressing in my head.
bearable is barely enough 